Voiceless

To all of those who feel they do not have a voice…

I am part of this amazing group of women where we are currently focusing on abundance and reading a very interesting book. There was section in the book that spoke about needing to let things go that create barriers on your path towards abundance. That really got me thinking about a block that I have not been able to fully clear due to my lack of understanding of it. After I read my weekly chapter, I spent some time meditating and journaling about why I have the belief that when I speak, I feel that I am not always fully heard. Where did this come from?

Have any of you experienced this same thing?

I realized this limiting belief was create by my parents when I was very young and has stayed with me into adulthood. My parents never took the time to listen to what I had to say. They spent more time suppressing, ignoring, or dismissing what I needed to say or express. Not having reached my full development of emotional intelligence, I thought that if I screamed and yelled people would listen and hear me. That was not the case. I would even go to the other extreme of closing myself off and saying nothing at all. Neither of which methods achieved what I needed. The pendulum always swinging from one side to the other, but never able to find balance.

As I explored this block further emotions of hurt, shame, guilt, unworthiness, anger, and despair came flooding into my field. All frequencies that I have been choosing to stay attached to. As I dug in deeper to see where these incoherencies where causing such dis-ease, I began to feel nauseous in my solar plexus and then, my throat felt as if it was closing. All the power I thought I had just striped away from me in a split second.

You can only imagine my surprise.

So, I dug in deeper and got more curious about this. Asking why did I allow this to happen? What was the purpose of this experience and why has it lasted for this long? And that’s when it came to me. I have been trying to force people into something they are not ready or willing to hear. I need to let it go. Letting go doesn’t mean never allowing myself sharing what I need to. It means letting go of the old ways and patterns so that I can create a new way that is more balanced. Sometimes is it not the words I speak that matter most. Heck, they may not even have value for the those that I am talking to. What is most important is the vibrational frequencies of the energy that is produced by my voice. If I express myself in a manner that is in harmonic resonance with positive intent, then those who are meant to receive that energetic frequency will feel it in their soul. That is where true authentic and unconditional loving healing takes place.

My voice is full of healing and loving energetic frequencies.

I related this revelation to when I worked as a mental health counselor with people who struggled with substance use disorders. We were taught that no matter how much resistance we received from clients who were not ready to change, to keep using our voice to educate, guide, and support while all the time reminding them there is another way. Why? Because they may not have been ready to hear it at that time, but down the road when they are finally ready, that is when they will hear what we were saying. And in that moment, they may make the right decisions.

Whether my parents, friends, or colleagues ignore or dismiss the words I express, that is okay because their souls are receiving the beautiful healing energy that is radiating from my soul. At the right time, when they need it most, their souls will speak to them reminding them of the right decision to make. We are all here having a human experience, and, in that experience, we accept and reject things differently. Just because someone isn’t hearing me through their human experience doesn’t mean their soul isn’t hearing me.

The soul hears everything.

For those of you who feel or have felt that your voice was being dismissed, ignore, and rejected know that the energy of your voice is touching the souls of each person you express yourself to. The soul finds value in this because it is so expansive and often needs this healing energy to continue its growth and development. So, keep sharing what you need to share and know that everything is happening for a higher purpose.